Road to 2013 is paved with…
Over on One Word, folks are sharing their “word” for 2013: their one-word challenge from the Spirit for the coming year. It’s an interesting idea, and the responses from readers are inspiring: I’m looking forward to checking back in through the year to see how they’re doing.
A quick scroll through the replies reveals two things:
- they all choose exciting, heart-expanding words
- they’re all really young [at least from my perspective at 50-cough].
I wanted to choose a word that fit #1. I really did! I almost convinced myself that my word from God is “Grace.” It’s a good word, it’s an exciting, challenging word. It’s a word to describe how I move forward, minding my judgmental attitude and my sharp tongue. BUT, it’s not really my word for this year, because I don’t fit #2.
You see, in my secret heart-of-hearts, I know that I’m not in an “expanding” phase of life. I’m in a narrowing down, a focusing part of the journey. Don’t get me wrong: Grace needs to be in everything I do, but it’s the fuel for the engine that the Spirit tells me to fine-tune this year. The road I’m navigating will have some steep hills and sharp curves, because God is leading me deeper into exploring His Word and living it as a “Woman of the Book.” So, my one Word isn’t noble, or theological: it’s just plain HARD:
Now that we’re officially retired, living is no longer just the narrow space left between kids, work, and church. Without schedules and predetermined responsibilities, it’s easy to fritter away what’s left of a lifetime: TV, books, computer games [dang you, level 59 of “Candy Crush!”] To be honest, there have been times when I find myself vacuuming at 10 pm, just so I can say “I accomplished something today!”
It’s not about a chore list, or even about good activities versus time-wasters. It’s about setting out on each day’s journey, asking “what do I intend to do with this gift of 24 hours?” It’s guarding my time, my actions, and most of all, my words so that I may be fueled by Grace. [Engage brain before opening mouth!] At year’s end, I want to say “Yes, I INTENDED to do that!”
We’re two weeks into 2013, and I’ve made changes to support living intentionally: the laptop is put away after each use; I’m back to shopping lists instead of aimlessly wandering the store aisles; and I’m reading and reflecting on one Bible passage each day between now and Palm Sunday [more about that another time]. Small steps, but moving in the God-ward direction. I don’t know where the road will lead, but I do know how He wants me to travel:
He has shown you, O [wo]man, what is good;
And what does the Lord require of you?
But to do justly,
To love mercy,
And to walk humbly with your God. [Micah 6:8]
What’s the one word that the Spirit is giving you this year?
PS I discovered this challenge through Sarah Bessey’s funny, insightful comments about her word for last year: “Fearless”.
PS2: Flo is back home at LaRosa, tired from all the excitement, but full of stories and memories of being loved and celebrated by her Edmonton family. I still want to grow up to be her.